On a personal note,,,

Normally I don't delve too much into my personal life and the chaos of the past few months, but for the cathartic effect that this blurb may bring I thought I would share a bit of the nightmare.

As some of you are aware, in early June my wife-to-be was arrested and charged by the police for her involvement in a crime against my landlords. Not only are they my landlords but they are my dearest friends. They have been a major support in my being able to get my life back together after returning to PA last April.

Today is what I believe is her final appearance before the court as she is pleading guilty for her crimes and faces sentencing. Altho I don't consider myself a true victim, I have been victimized by her actions. As such I will be able to make a victim statement at her sentencing hearing.

Below is what I plan on stating:

I would like to thank the court for this opportunity to speak. Altho I am not a victim in the manner of the ********, I have been affected by the actions of Miss ******.

To Miss ******:

Your actions have forever altered three ideals that I regard as important in an individual's life. You have destroyed my long held belief in honesty, integrity and loyalty within a relationship.

I am baffled as to your motivation behind your actions. Of all people in my personal life you chose to victimize, you chose the two people that have stood by me through the lowest points in my life. You of all people know that without the love, guidance, and support of the *******'s I would not be standing here today. Your actions, your betrayal, in my eyes are tantamount to rape. You have stolen from me the security I find in the gift of friendship.

For the six or so weeks since this nightmare began, I have watched the two people I care very deeply for struggle with the aftermath of your actions.It pains me a great deal, as I feel responsible for introducing you into their lives. The effects on my life are minimal compared to what I have witnessed in the lives of the *****'s.

My only request is that you cease in your attempts to contact me. Your misguided beliefs of our having any future together are a delusion. And yes I am very jaded in my views; you only have yourself to blame.

Forgive maybe, in time,,,forget, never!!